Tuesday, October 26, 2010


One last notice!  My blog has now moved to http://littlewomenandamom.com.  If you have us in your blogroll or google reader, you'll have to update to feed to http://littlewomenandamom.com/feed.  Thanks for reading!  :)


Monday, October 18, 2010


For those of you who read my blog, I wanted to update you. :)  I will be moving over to littlewomenandamom.com.  Blogger will redirect if you come to the page from there, but will not update posts any more.  So for those of you who use Google Reader, you'll probably have to update the RSS feed from the new site. 

See you over there! :)

Wednesday, October 13, 2010


My great-aunt passed away this morning.

She was such a part of my life, that she was like another grandma to me.

Though I am comforted by the knowledge that I will see her again, today I feel some of the sad ache of loneliness that comes with losing someone who is dear.

As I have held my littlest one today, I have thought a lot about my aunt.  This wee one carries her name.

After I heard the news of my aunt's passing, which I had been waiting for for several days, I instinctively went and picked up my little one and held her close.

For one moment, I felt the same feeling I had had as a child, wrapping my arms around my sweet, tall, gentle aunt.  I could feel the warmth of her stove and the breeze on my face as I would look through the window of her fascinating little bathroom.  :)  I could smell her dainty smell and hear her heart beat through her thin frame.  I could hear her soft little laugh, and for a moment, it was like she had come to say good-bye.

One life ends, and another is just beginning.  The day feels bittersweet. 

I think what I always loved most about my aunt is not that she and her sister always remembered my birthday.  It is that I noticed, even from a very young age, that life had not dealt her or her sister the easiest hand.  They were alone, but they had each other.  And they always smiled when I saw them.  Always. 

Kind of like my little one.  :)  I've never known a baby who smiled so much, regardless of ear infections and teething and a loud, busy home. 

So today, I am trying to remember those lessons as I say good-bye for a small time.  Smile, and rely on each other.  See the blessings in what you have. 

I'll miss you.  I can't wait to see you again.

Saturday, October 9, 2010


(My sisters, mom, a friend, and I at Yoga for Congo Women, Vernal, this morning.) 

I had the most beautiful morning today. It was damp, it was freezing.

It was wonderful.

A while ago, a few people did something and the ripples of their influence changed my life.

I, in turn, tried to do something, and I am seeing little, miraculous ripples going outward.

My sister then caught her own vision and did something of her own.  She organized a Yoga for Congo Women event in her hometown.  We had a wonderful little group of women show up. 

This morning, I am seeing the ripples of her influence going out.

Whatever you may believe in, whatever you may do, don't be afraid of results that are seemingly small.  Don't be afraid of tiny ripples.  Because those small, tiny ripples do go out, and who knows where their influence will end? 

I believe it's possible that they never will.

Start where you are, and do something.  That's the only way anything will ever change.

That's what these women are doing every day:

(photo by Lisa Shannon)

(photo by Lisa Shannon

(photo by Women for Women)

(photo by Women for Women)

Every day, by having the courage to hope for a new life, these women send forth their own ripples of hope and change in their villages.  And their ripples are possible because of the ripples of people like my sister, Christine.

Like each of us. 

Ready to make your own small ripple?  Consider doing Yoga for Congo Women online.  There's still time.  You will love it.  :)  Or, sign up for Team Hope....another amazing woman making some amazing ripples of change.  And your little ripple will make the ripples of other women possible.

And that's how the world changes.  :)

Thursday, October 7, 2010

She gets it from her mother.


Or the lack thereof. :)

This little one cracks me up all of the time. Once she could scoot around, she decided she was done with that and that walking was surely next.

"Next," meaning "right now," naturally.

Don't be fooled by these pictures...this isn't a cute attempt at crawling.  She is studying, working, truly trying to stand up.  And all with a smile on her face, the little sweetie.

It seems I am constantly running from one learning experience to the next, never stopping.  I get so dissatisfied with myself and get so eager to move on.  Today, after a moment of frustration, I realized that the pauses may be just as important, too.

At the very least, I can keep smiling, like she does, while desperately trying to move on to the next step, even when it's a long time in coming.  :)

Tuesday, October 5, 2010


I love my loved ones.  :)

I opened my heart on here a day or two ago.  It felt that day like my heart was broken...so weighed down by past wrongs, by weakness, by fear of inadequacy.

I was actually hoping for no response.  I was feeling lousy and just needed to write it all down.

But what a response I got.  My husband listened with those sweet ears and held me with those big arms.  :)  My sister-in-law reminded me of an incredible talk we had both just heard, and reminded me not to look back, but to go forward.  Several very good friends commented and cheered me on so kindly.  Another friend surprised me with an incredible gift.  I emailed with an incredible woman today about the influence she has had on my life through her beautiful and generous heart and talents.  My mother listened and laughed with me today, as did my sister.  And another unfailing sister, one who has always been too forgiving of me, inspired me with love and music.

Thinking about her tonight, my mind is caught up in lyrics of a song or two.  "Timshel."  It means choice, something you may do.  There is always a choice.

So many people have chosen to be kind to me, in spite of my inadequacies and wrongs. 

And I could choose to loathe myself, or choose to strive to do better, because as I was reminded today, there is more to me than this.  Also, that I am not alone in this.

Tonight I find myself recommitted, and re-remembering who I really am.  (Why is that so hard to remember?  It must be that it is so important...the hardest things seem to be the most important.)

So awake, oh my soul.  Droop no more.  For "where you invest your love, you invest your life." (-M&S)

And my life is a gift.  Literally.  I don't want to waste it feeling this way. 

Thank you for helping me, for loving me.

Fear not

Fear.  It's my greatest foe.  My biggest hurdle.  It's all too easy for me to buckle under and let fear, doubt, or anxiety rule my mind.

Thank you for those of you who commented or otherwise responded to the post yesterday.  I was at a low point and needed your insights.  I love you, and I am so grateful to you.

We need each other.  :)

Today, I crept down to the kitchen before my kids woke me up.  The sun was just beginning to peek in on the day.  The first things that greeted my eyes were two gorgeous new soap molds, made for me by a friend.

A simple sight, and a peaceful one.  It reminded me again that I am not alone.  :) 

I hit a low point the past couple of days.  Thanks for being there for me, to help me back up.  I hope I can do the same for you if you ever need it.

There is hope in the sunlight this morning again, and I am reminded of Jeffery R. Holland's words:

"I acknowledge the reality of opposition and adversity, but I bear witness of the God of Glory, of the redeeming Son of God, of light and hope and a bright future. I promise you that God lives and loves you, each one of you, and that he has set bounds and limits to the opposing powers of darkness.   I testify thatJesus is the Christ, the victor over death and hell and the fallen one who schemes there. The gospel of Jesus Christ is true, and it has been restored, just as we have sung and testified this morning.
 'Fear ye not.' And when the second and the third and the fourth blows come, 'fear ye not...The Lord shall fight for you.' 'Cast not away therefore your confidence.'"