Saturday, November 29, 2008

Never the same again

This past week has been one of the most difficult of my life. Without going into details, I was asked to do something that I could never have done had I not had an undeniable confirmation in my heart that somehow it was the right thing. And even with that, it has been excruciating and nearly unbearable. But I have promised Heavenly Father that I would be willing to do anything He asked, to become what He wanted me to become. But in the throes of this week's events, I found myself saying to Him in painful desperation, "Heavenly Father, if I do this, I will never be the same again."

Swift came the loving reply: "No, Ann, you never will."

In that moment, I realized and remembered what our lives are truly about...growth and progression. If I truly want to change and become what I was meant to become, I can never be the same again. So I will strive to trust Him and His kindness, and look forward to the new person that I will hopefully become by going through such a difficult experience.