Sunday, March 29, 2009

Never the same

These past few months have been very challenging for me. I have undergone a lot inside as I have struggled to change my heart. It has been a very painful growth process at times.

But it is incredible how, when I look back, the times of trial are always some of the choicest times, because of what I've learned and become.

Months ago, I knew that if I chose to undergo something that the Lord wanted me to do, I would never be the same again.

He was right. I'm not. And I hope I never will be. The feeling I have in my heart today is one of gladness, of a deeper understanding, compassion, and love than I have ever known.

Even though there have been so many painful times associated with following what the Lord would have me do, I know for a surety that I could never be happy doing anything else. Following Him may require great struggle, pain, and challenge, and though it may be agonizing at the time, for I'll admit I do struggle with pride and I am so far from perfect, there is nothing He could ask that I would consider "just too much." The alternative would be to draw back from Him, and I just do not want that. He has given me everything I have. I want to give something back.

My heart!

2 comments:

It's me, Jenny! said...

Beautiful testimony.

Ryan and Evelyn said...

You are such an inspiration!!! Thanks for the reminder that everything happens for a reason and that Heavenly Father is always there to teach and grow us into what we may become.