Friday, May 8, 2009

My life is changing

Do things ever keep you up nights?

They do me.

And usually it's things that bother me so much that I just can't stand it. Things that are wrong and shouldn't be the way they are. Not with my life, but with the world.

And the most troublesome part of all?

I can't change them.

That thought has troubled me more than anything. So much so that often I've had trouble sleeping and have found myself on my knees in sadness. I know that things can't change by God taking other people's agency away from them. He won't do that. But it seemed that it was the only way things could possibly change. With no army at my command, and no money to speak of, I certainly had no power to change them.

I've hated that I couldn't change the world.

Until one night recently that it struck me...

I can.

I'll write more on this later. A lot of it is quite personal. But I just wanted to say that we are never powerless. We all enter the world in our own way, but we all have the power to change it. I have seen my own way of entering the world, and my own way that I can sacrifice and change it.

My life is changing right now. A lot.

It's exhausting, but it's wonderful. We all have tremendous power for good. I just wanted to say that today.

4 comments:

Chantile said...

You change me :)

Adam said...

I have a lot of those nights... Especially lately...

Good luck! Glad you found something that helped!

kannie said...

:-) Just :-)

:-)

Tara and Dan said...

First of all, YES in answer to your first question. His name is Spencer.

Second of all, I need details. We need to talk. But after I get the zoo organized (aka the condo). Until then!!