Friday, November 6, 2009

Even through the madness...

This week has been a blur. I feel like my children and I have been through a long tunnel of moving, scrubbing, cleaning, and never-ending tasks. Last night, I came to a point where for a moment, it felt like it would never end and tears came to my tired eyes.

But last night, Matt brought us back home, and this morning, moved boxes to the side so that we could have space to breathe today. Today, the girls and I have just played and enjoyed the sunshine. What a relief to our souls.

And somehow, even though last night I felt like nothing more than a wall-scrubbing robot with no skin left on her hands, today I feel inspiration starting to come back.

My mind is filling again with ideas of how to create and inspire, how to make a difference and change the world in my own way. Last night I felt empty. Tonight I am filled with compassion and love again.

To me, even this small little week in my small little life is such a testament to me of the atonement, and the renewing power it has. Everything can be okay again. Even when our minds and hearts become drained and down, whether by something large and horrific or something small (like moving), somehow, I believe that everything can truly be healed and made alright once again.

And somehow, even though we may be busy and tired, there is divinity in each of us, the ability to create and inspire, and to change the world.

6 comments:

Krista said...

*sniffle* (That's SUCH a common reaction to your posts!!! :)

Thank you for sharing this tonight - I'll have to post it somewhere I can remember it next time I'm at that low point. Which is probably at least 30 minutes away. ;)

Chantile said...

I always have breakdowns when I move. My biggest was moving in with Ty (can't imagine attempting that with 4 kids!). The best part, though, was Ty making me take a break and letting me cry through all my emotions until I felt better. What nice husbands we have! :)

Thanks for the video; very sweet and inspiring. :) I've been feeling kind of the same way the last couple of weeks.

I love you!!

Tara and Dan said...

Can't wait to see pics of the new place!

PS- I still can't believe I'm just now finding out about your announcement.... I need to stay caught up more!!

Sarah said...

YOU are a blessing to those that read these. Thanks for you and your wonderful family... inspiration through your blogs and facebook. Please keep it up and please.... so ready to hear more about the new place and new miracle!

Nicole said...

hooray! you're in! a new life awaits....

Debra Domenici said...

Wow! You are so inspiring. I love reading your posts. I am glad that you are in a home again and have so much to look forward to. Love you guys!